Being the change

“Life can be strange” – how often do most of us repeat this phrase? Off late I think life is not strange. Life just is what it is. Life. The perspective on being strange or otherwise comes from our preconceived notions about what life should be. But life doesn’t listen. It has a mind and heart of its own. And an uncanny amount of resilience to go just the way it wants to – despite all of our ranting and raving to the contrary.

But Life, it’s accommodating as well – but only when we give up ranting, raving and complaining and we start doing. Want a change – be the change!

For the longest time I complained about my life. About all the changes that have been overwhelming me. Then, when I reached my threshold of tolerance, something arose from within me and I made changes. Changes that have been far from easy, changes that make me often wake up every single morning and wonder why I made them; changes that make me want to pack my bags and move back to the life that I moved on from. Yet, the same changes, are taking me to a place I wanted to be.But now, I want other things. The very things that I complained about!

Life decided to teach me appreciation - for life as it is, when it is and the way it is. It decided to teach me perspective on the big picture and on how the small things really do sort out. And if you chase the small things, the big things become blurry. But most importantly, life has taught me that it will be. The way it is meant to be based on my actions and reactions – verbal and unsaid. But the good news is , while I change, so will the thoughts in my head – and with that, I can guide my life to the way I want it to be.

Hum of the day

Meandering along the way, changing, adapting and re-shaping at its own will - perhaps that will is mine and I don’t know it.

How are you feeling emotionally?

Listened to the heart
Felt the cracks and pain
Listened to the head
Experienced it all over again

How are you feeling emotionally?
I wish I had a clue
The heart and head cannot be in tandem
I do the best that I can do

A new place a new home
A craving to be with the old
An old place a familiar life
A story left untold

A dream I used to dream
A dream it is no more
A life I used to want
Emotions I need to store

How are you feeling emotionally?
Lost, alone and afraid
I took the steps I needed to
But life is now a careful tread

I move on each day
Hope for a move of change
I stand still every day
Afraid of things unsaid

A new perspective on how I see things
A settlement for which I used to crave
The door opened with unusual ease
Acknowledgement of errors made

I dream a new dream
A breath of air I want to call my own
The wind is yet to catch my wing
But now I am not alone

How are you feeling emotionally?
Certain, uncertain, happy and afraid
Choosing emotions each day
Waiting for the smile, waiting for the unsaid

Hum of the day
Sometimes I can’t acknowledge what’s inside me. Sometimes I don’t want to. Sometimes it all overwhelms me, at times I want to let go.